i wish someone loved me"Broken hearts aren't easily fixed"That's my motto for this horrid worldIts transformed me into this shellWith a dark black void inside.I stare silently ahead, the faces blur together.I look in the mirror, a pair of hollow eyes stare backFate stands next to me whispering,"Your nothing. Nothing, nothing at all. Pathetic"It echos in my ears haunting me while I sleepIt scratches my mind when I'm wide awake.Pain has no affect on me anymore.Its not the physical pain that matters anymore.My fathers screams deafen me.My moms ripped clothes blind me.My brothers hands cripples me.My sisters mouth silences me.My insides scream for a release.My outside exterior is silent.I grasp at reality,hoping I will be caught.As it looks, I'm not caught.But never fear I feel no pain.A sigh escapes my lips.My eyelids close slowly.My last thought is quite simple.Really not that big.Its just one little sentence"i wished someone cared about me,I wish someone loved me"
he loves me he loves me notHe loves me,he loves me not.He loves me,he loves me not.Take on petal at a time,and drop it to the ground.Repeating these words again and again.He loves me.As the last petal drops,it's a love me not.Your heart stops beating a minute,then you crack a smile,Grab a new flower and begin again.He loves me,he loves me not.He loves me,he loves me not.Take one petal at a time,and drop it to the ground.Whispering he loves me.Which is it really?Flowers are indicisive just as boys are.One minute he loves you,and the next he never did.Just pick one already,i can't wait forever.He loves me,he loves me not,He loves me,he loves me not.Take one petal at a time,and drop it to the ground.He loves me not,plays over and over again.Chuckling you toss the stem to the ground,and whisper it's just a silly flower,with a hint of doubt in your voice,that couldn't fool anyone.
I Don't Love You Like I Did Yesterday...I have loved you all my life,Without ever seeing the hidden knife.I listened to your political view,And your conspiracies, though slightly askew.I loved your music, movies, and games,Growing up, we had loved the same things.We forged a bond, you and I,One I had hoped would never die.But I was wrong, and now I see,That we are no longer a family.We barely even tolerate each other,When was the last time you loved my mother?She did you wrong, I know that now,But can you not forgive her; what of your vows?I know you haven't, though you say you did,Because if that were true, would we be like this?"Daddy, please, don't leave this way!"Is that what you want to hear me say?The day you go, I'll not be seen,It's her you abandon, and my brother and me.Tears will forever stream down my face,I'll never again wish "Happy Father's Day!"Can I even call you my father anymore?Or must I deal with my heart being torn?Will you simply remain the man that made me?Was all the "love" yo
You and I are differentYou and I are different.Not from each other,But from everyone else.They can't say we're just kids,Because we're not.Have we ever been kids?We're not problematic,Not troublesome, thoughPeople might think of us as.We're troubled.The difficulty to comprehendTranscends even us.I don't understand you.You don't understand me.All by the reason we don't understand ourselves.There's a soul,A heart maybe.There are thoughts roaming,Inside our minds, rampaging,And only at night, staring at the skies,Do we lose controlAnd they spring free.It's torture.We're damaged.To a point where the interiorIs empty.It's lonesome.We appear to search for something,The question always presentAs a certainty; for what?You should not miss something you've never owned.Is that to mean we've had it,And it became detached along our life?It's cruel.It's so because we see itIn everyone's grasp,But somehow it's escaped us.And we can't tell wha
Dreams and RealityAlone in the evening solitude she waits.Her small, fragile form eagerly ready for him.He- the lord of the shadows;the one who keeps her company.He steps into her mind.His silver smile cutting through the shadows-A blissful dagger in the darkness of her soul.He clutches her to his body,Lightly pressing her lonely lips to his.Shyly she smiles whilst his hands caress her face."I love you" says the girl.He smirks at her."You know I'm not real my dear" says heShe sighs "It's yet another dream isn't it?"The man nods and melts away into the shadows,And she, is left alone,in a solemn embrace with loneliness.The only embrace she's ever known...
All That I've GotI have died a thousand times,Holding in my lovesick rhyme,Wish you would forever be mine.I should have listened to you,You were right all along,Now I forge my regret,Into a tuneless song.When did life,Become so wrong?Life was better with you here.I know it'd take some time to fully heal.But I don't want to.Because I want you.I know what I said before,But I've run it through my head,A thousand times or more,And being alone,Kills me to the core.
Fake SmileWhat is a smile?The first thing many people would say is that it represents happiness.But what if I told you it was the complete opposite.How am I suppose to expect others to accept me if I can't even accept myself?I struggle every day trying to hide all my flaws.But it's only natural for everyone to have some.The only thing I can do to make myself look better in the face of others is to smile.What is this feeling burning deeply within my heart?Is it jealousy, hate, sorrow, despair or all of them combined?I feel like my soul is chained away somewhere, struggling to brake free.And I can't seem to find happiness in my life.I try to hide it with a smile, but only I know that it's not real.What do I do if I have no hope for the future?Everything I've ever believed in turned out to be a lie.What's stopping me from going crazy?All I can do is get my composure back and put my game face on.My face cannot show any emotion,So I shall smile once again and again, and again and the